Happy Anniversary

Today I swore I'd forge a path anew

because it's our anniversary,

and anniversaries are meant to celebrate

momentous occasions.

It started out as a decision to build my life with you

which due to life's enigmatic twists and turns

truly happened and truly didn't.

We dreamed of different things,

I see it more clearly now.

You, of having a family and

I, of going against the grain.

But here we are,

me, beat up by the odds

and you, well,

probably still dreaming of a family

you'll have one day

that will now be possible

because of the steps you've taken

these past months.

Because it's our anniversary,

I walked when I should have taken the bus.

I dwelt with the cold when I should have taken refuge in warmth.

I had my hair chopped off, for I was looking for a change.

I raise my glass and drink to our good health,

and our futures that grow further apart from each other

with each passing day.

Happy anniversary darling,

here's hoping a couple more shots

will finally help me forget about you.